This week has been a strange one. I have seen so much negativity here and I am craving some nice Southern hospitality and manners. I stood by this week and let people walk all over me. I stood by and watched people walk all over many friends and I am tired. People dont hold doors around here or move when you say "excuse me". What happened to courtesy? Sometimes I think I am invisible and that I just get "the raw end of the stick" because people are having a bad day. But do I really deserve it? I try to be nice wherever I go but it is so HARD to be when you get nothing back in return. We have tried to "fit in" out here but so many obstacles keep it from happening. For those of you reading this and thinking that I am just wanting sympathy, I am not. This blog is like a journal of sorts and I am finally putting words down for things that have been bothering me for months now. I am just so TIRED of trying to be nice when all I get in return is CRAP! God taught us to love one another so why cant we? Instead it seems like we hurt one another until one of us breaks. What good is this doing? Are we accomplishing anything other than causing pain. I just wish some people would stand back and look at themselves yelling. I told someone this week that I truly believe that people have an out of body experience when they are yelling. It is after the fact, when I wonder if they even know how bad they have hurt that other person or if they even care that they hurt that person at all.
Enough of my venting. I guess I will put on a smile and continue on my way. All I can try to do is to keep being nice to everyone I encounter and HOPE that things might change someday soon.